amazing love...His deep intimacy...His indescribable joy...His amazing
peace...His generous and prosperous provisions and blessings...His divine
protection...His healing touch...and His rich relationships! May God bless
you with His abundant life...and with ALL that includes!
God's Word tells us we can boast in the Lord...If you want...Please join me in praising our
Lord as I share God's incredibly amazing 2009 testimony in my life:
My Life with My Lord in 2009
"O you redeemed ones... -- you who have been bought by the precious blood of this steadfast,
resolute Redeemer -- come and think awhile of Him, that your hearts may burn within you and that your faces may be set like flints to live and die for Him who lived and died for you"
~ Charles Spurgeon
In 2009, my heart has BURNED within me...to live for Him Who died for me!!!!!!
In 2009, there was such intense pain, suffering, and trauma in my life...more than at any time
before...(and I have had MUCH pain, suffering, and trauma in my life!) It was in 2009, I was deeply hurt and traumatized - beyond what words could ever describe.
That intense pain, suffering, and trauma fueled my need for my Lord in intense ways...and forced me to cling to God in stronger and tighter, intimate embraces!
Amazingly, in 2009, my Lord gave me, in an unexpected, but wonderfully fulfilling way, exactly what I needed for deep healing in those
I experienced God's love in an unexpected
way...which opened up my heart to allow me to seek God's deeper love in ways that I only dreamed!
It was also in 2009, that my children and I
(as well as many other family members) have started what could be a life-long,
uncertain journey through the valley of the shadow of death, as we do not know
if we have inherited a mutation of a gene that causes sudden death.
Due to all the previously mentioned intense pain, as well as being plunged into the valley of the shadow of death, in 2009, I was driven to fall in love with my Lord in ways that I have never known such intimacy before!
Stemming from that deep intimacy...
John G. Lake said, "There is a mighty lot of difference between saying prayers and
It was in 2009 that I learned that mighty difference!
As I exit 2009, I enter into a new decade of serving the Lord as a sold-out worshiper of God who has an ever-increasing passion for praying! It was in 2009, that my Lord EXPLODED my passion of intercession and took that incredibly passionate and fulfilling part of my life to amazing new and exciting
This passionate intercessory prayer experience has been incredibly enjoyable; but because of fibromyalgia and all my many other health issues, it has been unbearably exhausting, emotionally draining, incredibly hard, and demanding of my time and, sometimes, of my very last ounce of energy! It has been draining WORK, but...
...OH...mere words could never adequately describe the intensity of the blessings it has
...because at the same time, it has also been
indescribably exhilarating and extremely rewarding as my Lord has surprisingly
showered me with powerful anointing to intercede (anointing I have never experienced before!) and amazing answers to my prayers! I have NEVER before experienced such power in the area of intercessory prayer!
I stand in AWE of my Lord, Who can (and chooses to) take such a weak, weak, weak, scared, wounded, little girl, and do something strong in her and through her!!!!!!
THAT is some amazing grace!!!!!!!!
However, just a few days before the end of 2009, I experienced my Lord in a different way than I had been previously. I had been "fasting" from things that I truly enjoy to spend intense and powerful times in prayer. I had a very specific request I was asking of God.
God's Word tells us to come boldly before the Throne. I do not EVER remember being so bold in my prayers before!
It was toward the very end of 2009 that my Lord answered my prayer. He said, "No."
After hearing of the answer, I cried, "God, I don't understand!!!!!!!!"
It was then, in the midst of confusion and sobs, that my Lord gave me the grace to fall down to my knees and lift up my hands to Him, still in deep pain as to why He would answer with a no, to worship Him in the deep, hurting places of my heart. It was there, in those sobbing moments near the end of 2009, (which are still so fresh that they still bring tears to my eyes as I type) when my Lord solidified, even stronger, my commitment to Him as I brought a "sacrifice of praise" to Him Who answered, "No."
Yes, 2009 has been the catalyst to a MORE INTIMATE and FULFILLING LIFE with MY LORD!
What will 2010 bring? Only my Lord knows...and He will be there when it all happens...the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful, the pain, the suffering, and the joy and intimacy in the midst of it all!
Lord, I offer my life to You...in 2010!
(Written by Anne Marie Cisz on December 30,
May you all be radically touched and blessed by the Lord!!!!!!!!!