Today, once again, I asked God to have mercy on my children. They are hurting so deeply.
One reason that they are hurting so deeply is due to my extreme chronic sickness. (I have been sick for over forty years - that's over four decades - and particularly much worse the last eleven years, which have been my children's "emotionally formative years." The chronic sickness has been so much more severe than "outsiders" could ever possibly know...[one reason for that is that I rarely go "outside" due to, pretty much, being homebound for so long, so no one really even knows what is going on with my family and me.])
Yesterday, I spent a long time on the phone with an excellent treatment center in Arizona, where I sense a strong leading to go. I talked, on the phone, about how much my children need me and how they do not even know that I was not always "THIS SICK!" The phone call was not complete without tears.
After the phone call, I was "hopeful" about getting better for my children, but while I was looking at how a two-month stay at a treatment center can bring restoration and peace to my children as well as healing to my body, others in my life were looking at extreme expense and seemingly impossible logistics of a two-month stay in Arizona, where I was told I will get WORSE before I get better.
So...This morning, I woke up with the realization that, unless GOD MOVES MOUNTAINS, I may NOT be going to Arizona...but what does that mean? Does that mean that I will NOT be healed?
With unbearable disappointment in my heart once again, I just sat, cuddling, in the comforting presence of Abba Daddy for a couple of hours, then I willingly chose to move forward with spending time with Jeremiah, who was home alone with me...NOT knowing that the "dreaded potential emergency" was going to STRIKE again.
I was home alone with Jeremiah and an "emergency situation" arose. I tried to keep calm and hide it from Jeremiah. I begged God to have mercy on me...and have mercy on my children. I prayed and prayed for God to help me. God answered.
And I am grateful.
When Greg came home, I cried as I told him the whole story, and he said to me, "NONE OF US KNOW WHEN IT'S GOING TO STRIKE!"
It is so extremely frightening to never know when "it" is going to strike...and that is the reason why I was "not allowed" to be home alone with my children at one point (when emergency room visits were a frequent part of my life).
It breaks my heart that my children have literally grown up with those frequent, frightening circumstances...and that is why I continue to ask God to have mercy on them.
Would you join me right now in praying this Scripture over my children and me?
I am having a huge problem with prayer requests.
NO, the problem is not that there are too many of them! (Although I used to think that was my problem!) Since I receive most (not all, but most) of people's prayer requests through the internet, several years ago I threatened to throw my computer out the window if I got "one more" prayer request! I am so glad I never followed through on that threat!
No, the problem with prayer requests is NOT that there are too many of them. The problem with prayer requests is how we, as intercessors and prayer leaders/coordinators "perceive" them.
Depending upon the setting, I have been both a prayer intercessor and a prayer leader/coordinator; therefore, I am able to speak with knowledge, experience, and expertise.
Yes, the problem with prayer requests is how we "perceive" them.
Look at the second definition - interpret or look on (someone or something) in a particular way.
Unfortunately, how we, as intercessors and prayer leaders/coordinators "perceive" a particular prayer request is likely to affect how, and to what extent, we pray for the particular request.
Is a child's prayer "unimportant?"
The above picture is of a child's praying hands. Children sometimes have such very simplistic prayer requests. This is a very precious "gift" because they have not yet been hurt by the judging voice of others that what they are requesting from God is just "too insignificant and unimportant" to pray about. As Godly role models, we would never "judge" their prayer request as being "not significant enough" or "not important enough" to pray. No, as Godly role models, we would join our hearts with theirs and pray for that very simple request that is important enough to the child's heart to request of the heart of his Heavenly Father.
According to Galatians 3:26, we are all children of God.
And according to Mathew 10:29-31, God seems to not only take notice, but truly even care about the "seemingly insignificant and unimportant" details of our lives.
So, why do we, as intercessors and prayer leaders/coordinators feel that we have the right to "perceive," and therefore judge, the prayer requests that come to us as "insignificant" and "unimportant?"
Precious intercessors and prayer leaders/coordinators, who has God given the right to judge that any particular prayer request from any one of His children is just not significant or important enough to pray about or to pass on further to additional intercessors?
So, why do we continue to have our own "perceptions" come through in the way in which we share those requests?
I have seen many reasons why intercessors and/or prayer leaders/coordinators "perceive" or "judge" prayer requests, labeling them as either "important" or "unimportant":
The list could go on and on...
But it shouldn't...
So, what can we do about it?
I believe that "judging" someone's prayer request based upon our own "perceptions" grieves the very Spirit of God!
No, I do not have a clever "screen shot picture" of a Bible verse linked to the source that "proves" it.
So, how do I know?
Well, not only have I been an intercessor and a prayer leader/coordinator, I have also been the mom of children who have been scarred by my increasingly chronic and disabling sickness that has me increasingly more homebound and hinders me increasingly more from being involved in their lives in the ways that they and I would like - whose prayer requests have been "perceived" and "judged" as "too insignificant and unimportant" to continue asking for prayer and "too insignificant and too unimportant" to pass on any further to additional intercessors.
And that hurts.
As intercessors and prayer leaders/coordinators, I do not want us to do to others what others have done to me.
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