- it's a new month?
- today's been a week since she had her first full day there...away from here?
- today I should be working on preparations for the first day of homeschool, which officially starts tomorrow?
- I am realizing more and more that I REALLY NEED to find my "new normal" as we "do life" with a piece of my heart in a far-away place?
- ...or is it (like someone else suggested) because EVERYTHING ended ALL AT ONCE (Long story short - major homeschool problems, then Puerto Rico missions trip [where there was a tropical storm, sickness, and a jellyfish sting], then preparing for Africa, then "sending to Africa"...THEN...SILENCE. It has been SO VERY QUIET at home the last week!)
So, I, once again, as I try not to hyperventilate and also try to prevent a migraine, I...Breathe for the Sake of the Gospel...
And as I fall apart, unsuccessful at my attempts to choke back the tears, I whisper to God, "It's WORTH it!"
I say from the bottom of my deeply hurting heart..."It's WORTH it...THEY are WORTH it!"
So, now I am telling myself, "Breathe, Mama...Breathe for the Sake of the Gospel!"